The Light

I wanted to be

a shining light

of insight

but when people

saw the worst in me

all my fallacies

went in flight

as the black birds

of thought prey in

the silent nights

what sought they

if not my weakest

moments in me

and my misguided

ambiguity

would being social

be yet another mistake

and someone expose me

as yet another fake

my disability to see

and to instantly respond

intuitive to cues

while my mind distorted

love with the fear of decision

and feeling without a clue

as I became the idiot

the one to be ashamed

of all the social errors

a lack of trust was

what remained

I was thrown into

fear and doubt

as the light went out